So many people are posting about the recent retreat – mostly participants and how fun it was. But they don’t know the sweat, tears, prayers it took – and of course the amazing grace and faithfulness of God – that led to the success of this event.
Preparing for the retreat was no easy feat. On many occasions, I asked myself why am I doing what I’m doing? I am not paid for this job. This workload isn’t for a volunteer. A hired staff should be doing these. It’s not like working in the corporate where you can compel your team to work either because the registration team is also composed of volunteers like me. They have regular jobs and own lives too. On top of it all, I need to be calm, firm, yet loving and gracious because I am representing God. This retreat is supposed to bring in people who do not know God, but if I can’t be loving, then why would they even want to go?
And that is so difficult. I questioned my motive. I grumbled, complained, cried. Am I doing this for God, or out of expectations? Because in all honesty, it feels like the latter than the former. And if I am doing all these out of expectations, then I am just wasting my time and effort and money.
1 Corinthians 3:11 -15 says, 11For no one can lay a foundation other than that which is laid, which is Jesus Christ. 12Now if anyone builds on the foundation with gold, silver, precious stones, wood, hay, straw— 13each one’s work will become manifest, for the Day will disclose it, because it will be revealed by fire, and the fire will test what sort of work each one has done. 14If the work that anyone has built on the foundation survives, he will receive a reward. 15If anyone’s work is burned up, he will suffer loss, though he himself will be saved, but only as through fire.