Jesus is an emotional being on the cross, he screamed out of pain. There was excruciating pain, suffering, shame. If I were to be hang on a cross, what I’d feel would be what Jesus would have felt. Jesus did not go just go through his life passionless. In the same way, the way I love must be passionate too.
From solid joy
Obedience is learned from choosing God during sufferings. It is not merely a decision of saying, I no longer disobey, I choose to obey. Rather, we obey through sufferings we experience, just as Jesus suffered them. I know this is true. And the same time I have to be grateful to God because he disciplines me even when I am faithless. He wants my obedience.